– Do you remember the first time you killed someone? Yeah. We weren’t a family that carried guns or, any kind of weapon for violence or anything, though. We played war and stuff like that but you know, it’s never real. And my dad and my mom, they told us, it’s like, to hurt people or kill or never, ever– You always learned
that when someone died, it was, it was something
that was detrimental. Someone felt it. Someone else needed that
person in their lives. I grew up, you know,
protected all my life, even when I joined the military, you know, my guys treated
me as a kid brother. I was protected. – Have you ever killed anyone – and if so, what happened? Ah, which time? We were in a couple different villages in Surobi, which is a
city right next to Charbaron. We were going to the border of Albania, to a town nearby. We set up claymores, they’re bomb devices that you face and they have like 700
steel balls in them. We were ambushed. My bus was blown up. I was the only one up there that wasn’t hurt. And scared to death, scared to death, really, really, really, really scared. So I started asking, screaming for help. “Somebody get up here and help me. “I’m alone.” And then, and then, then, two little heads. As I took the first three steps, I just was bounding up, basically, that’s when the gunfire started. We gunned down these two guys holding a larger machine gun, a PKM, and another guy holding his ammo. So they were just running
from point A to point B. We happened to just gun ’em down. And they were right next to a qalat. A qalat’s a house, like a little mud-hut, and a lady came out. That one guy is as close to me because Iranian, they come, they come very close to us and they attack us at night, so, we shoot everywhere. My head was ringing. Everything was in slow motion. And there was a rifle on the ground that had gotten blown out of the bus. I picked it up and ran towards the gunfire. I was down and all I could see was his head and shoulders, he had a hard hat on, and then I saw the red emblem. It was definitely, it was, and then when his, when I could see a silhouette, I blasted ‘em. Silhouettes. They’re not real people,
they’re just targets. You don’t shoot women or
children on the battlefield. But we were just so, we were
just so into the moment. We watched her pick up
the rifle and that was, well the machine gun, and that was, that was the cue and we just lit her up. And I remember just watching, you know, there was three of us
and we just opened up and it was just blood up against the wall. She just slumped over and it was like, “All right, we got her.” We found a very young Vietnamese person with his legs mostly gone. I come to him, I looked at his face with the flashlights. He told me just, just finish me, just finish,
I don’t want to live, so, so I kill him. A bunch of the guys had caught up to me and they were like, “What did you do?” And I’m like, “What are you doing here?” I thought I was dead. I didn’t realize I was the
only one that got off the bus. The whole situation is like almost an out of body experience
where you’re looking down on this situation. You know, I could’ve
picked a bullet out of there. Every second, every small little detail of that exact moment. I can tell you that,
what the dust felt like, you know, how, how the
air tasted on my breath. Every little detail, you, you know. Because that’s the first time
you’ve done something so big. If there’s a hell, that’s probably what it smells like there. It penetrates you and it just, won’t go away for a long time. It’s horrible. Once you realize they’re
gone, they’re dead, then what death looks like is nothing. There’s nothing there. There’s a body there, but there’s nothing at all there. One minute you have
somebody walking along and the next, there’s
just a lump of flesh. It goes from something, a big something, to the smallest nothing that there can be. It goes from dreams and aspirations to nothing. You know, you can kick it. You can hit it with a stick. You can throw rocks on it, you can do anything
and it won’t bother it, because it’s dead. I know it’s not right,
it’s not right to do this, but I have to. If I focus about all this stuff, in one minute if I focus, I lose my mind, but I never focus about this stuff. I didn’t feel any personal guilt. I just, I felt sorry for them, but, no personal guilt, no. It was strange, you know,
you could disassociate when you’re, you’re shooting at a spot in the jungle, but this guy was right there and I felt very compassionate and
I was thinking about, you know his girlfriend,
his family, whatever. I didn’t give a fuck who he was. I was trying to keep me alive. I wasn’t, it wasn’t me and a Vietnamese. It was me and anybody that’s got a gun, anybody, I was, oh man this is hard. – When they find out that
you served in Vietnam, – do they ask you if you’ve killed anyone? Yes. What is normally your answer? I say, I’m not sure. I may have. Outside of the Army, when is it okay to take someone’s life? Do you want to go home
and see your family? Hmm? Nah, the question’s back on you. Would you want to go
home and see your family? Well then I guess it’s okay. I mean the difference in war and in civilian life, you got no choice on one, on one of those. If they mean to do harm
to myself or my family, I’ll do anything I can to
prevent them from doing it. If it means taking their life, fuck ’em, they’ve chosen their path. Outside of war, is mostly never justified. But in war, neither side
deserves to die, honestly. I mean, that guy over
on that side is fighting for what he believes in and you’re fighting for what you believe in. Both have families and children
probably and, you know. I think there are people that just, it’s not that they don’t deserve to live, it’s, well, it’s not that they don’t deserve to have been born, but maybe they don’t
deserve to go on living. There are, I do have that belief. That there comes a point, when, you know, enough’s enough from one person. Enough’s enough. You can’t live in our world. That’s just the way it, you know, the problem there is somebody, someone has to have the power to say that you can’t do that. And now who, and then somebody
has to give them that power. That’s, it’s all so confusing to me.

100 thoughts on “Veterans Describe Killing during Wartime | On Killing: Season 1 | Cut”

  1. So you are protecting kilers, and fuck you dont kill a kids you fuckers have killd kids in Serbia, a facking kids you have killd in 99

  2. "4:20" — Sir, there is most definitely a Hell, & it's in the center of this Earth. Volcanoes, fumaroles, etc, testify to Hell's existence — if anybody needs any more testimony than what the Holy Bible says.

  3. They talking about going home to your family and be killing people all over the world that have nothing to do with America's safety what so ever

  4. The jokes here are disgusting btw. And the clear difference between the Vietnam vets and other vets… Lots of wisdom in the older guys… And pain.

  5. Piece of shit america always has to interupt in every single f war.They have nothing to do with these ppl and they just attack without reason just for f money!

  6. Ahahahah Jebali smo vas na kosovu kao budale tehnoloski i vojno nazadnija vojska posle 2 rata i opet niste mogli kurca bez aviona .. jebes vojsku bez pesadije

  7. That's kinda funny they all talk about kill or be killed, protect my family while they're not even in their own country.

  8. Wars are fought for greed and power. Their might be the odd exception but that's it.dont buy into the propaganda.

  9. @0:26 isn’t this Willy Wonkas dad who’s a dentist in the Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory movie with johnny depp🤔 lol

  10. I'm an Army veteran and I have to say that the young guy has alot of cliches. He sounds like he's repeating video games and war movie dialogue. I don't sense the weight of combat when he speaks.

  11. How are we supposed to understand the stories if they are all told in the same time? What kind of editing is this

  12. Humain is empathic by nature. We are not made to kill, to fight maybe but not to kill, people who can kill easily are brainwashed mostly by government, religion or scared by criminals…look at the pain in their eyes !!

  13. Pause the video and think to yourself how lucky you are to have and to live in a country like the United States…

  14. They should have asked them why they think they were in the war in the first place and if they still think that today

  15. They should not be having these guys talk about this shit….even if they greenlighted the situation, it clearly bothers the fuck out of them. Some things are better left under the rug. They did what they had to do, just let em be now.

  16. It’s weird how different the old guy with glasses is compared to the young guy. The old guy actually looks like he was effected from killing someone and you can tell that it he actually has normal human emotions. But the young guy just makes me sick. He seems like he enjoyed taking someone’s life. I don’t care if you are a war veteran but if you don’t feel bad for killing someone then you are worse than the person you killed. If I killed a human or an animal I would feel horrible.

  17. One of my best friends was in Vietnam. He was a good man but he could never talk about the war. When someone would ask him about it he would just shut down. He couldn't watch war movies of any kind cause it was just to painful for him. He did two tours. I was fortunate enough to keep his flag that was draped over his coffin. It's the most valuable item I own.

  18. People before: Violence, the only thing u don't want to do but is your duty when u are on service.

    People now: LoZL VolEnCie Is FUn XdeDdxDd

  19. All of these are just disgusting Americans that actually signed up to go murder innocent civilians by their own free will. America didn't have forced conscripting so they all wanted to invade and kill innocent people for oil,drugs, or political power of their criminal country. Absolutely disgusting. Better do this with real soldiers/men and do a video with European soldiers.

  20. I love how some of them say: We had no choice, they want to hurt my family i can't allow them. It's hilarious when you realize these people were fighting invader wars… where their country attacked innocent people to slaughter them and take whatever they want. Also nobody forced them to sign up for that disgusting invading.. they did that themselves. I love how clueless americans are.

  21. Congratulations you guys became hired killers and invaded foreign countries to do the dirty work of corporate fat suits alll because of resources and $$$$…. noice.

  22. Lance was doing his time in Kosovo, where NATO and albanian terrorists attacked serbian civilians and tried overtaking Kosovo… Then NATO bombed Serbia for 72 days and in that bombing more civilians died then soliders. Fuck NATO !

  23. so when kids in the chi say the same thing they look at them like beast.everything all these people are saying happin every day in USA.when you fighting for them its ok but black kids fighting everyday like that just to live.

  24. I once looked up a old sd cart in a old gopro from my brother well i have nightmares now he used it when he was in the army every where dead body's all rotten and black terible masive graves of 100 body's in a hole he also shot people i dont even know why i keeped looking but it was terible a month later i told him what i saw and he just sayed dont be sorry for them there not real humans.

  25. These men are hurting. They may carry that burden as a consequence for the rest of their lives. I have never been confronted with a situation like theirs. No judgement from me. I ask Father God to heal them and make them whole in the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

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